i unerstand. u feel violated, and cheated. nidne feelings oru vilayumillate veroiralude munil ittallo ennu. thts not how it happened. just casual talk aarunnu. that seemed to be the safest option i cud tell him. so i told him.ninde kashtakalathil chirikkanonnumalla.. i told him just as regular friends do.. like in the veins of naaniye tariqine vahcu pokkunnatho, enne vanamadichappo pidichatho, sahcine thundu kandappopokkiyatho pole... its a part of growing up. athonnum aaru atra kaaryamakkilla. allathe ninne vishamippikkanam, nidne secrets ellarudem munnil kottighoshikkanam ennonnumillarunnu. aa kaaryam just light aaye avatarippichullu.. pinne orthorthu chirikkan pattiya college anubhavangal pole. allathe athidne true seriosuness endem nidnem idayil bhadram.
ithu mail cheyyathe blog cheyyunnathu nee ippo kaananda nnu vachu thanna. as usual, enikk justify cheyyathe vayya. but nidne sidinnu ee relation save cheyyan oru ithum kandilla.. it was as if u dnt care to even resolve a fight. as usual. i dont know. somehow, i feel our relation is going to hell. and avan. i hate that son of a bitch now. etra issues undelum i had a hope inside me tht nxt year njangal patch up aakumarikkumennu. he obviosuly din think so. he removed me, and then avan ninnodu sollan poyekkunnu. njan mandan.he doesnt want me, fine, i dont want him in my life.ithokke ariyam ennittum nee ippozhum avanodu valiya friendly aanennum enthokkeyanelum avanumayi tudarumennu tarappichu parayukem ellam kude cheytappo i dunno, io guess i feel unwanted. or made a fool. i dunno. entho. athonda mail diathe. i dun want to be the guy who walks after someone and begs for a relationship, if the other person doesnt want it..ninakk vendayenkil fine. enikkum venda. ene kaiyinnu ini oru initiation prateekshikkanda.